Review: The Only Living Boy in New York (2017)

The Only Living Boy in New York

Ternyata The Battleship Island terlalu berat untuk ditonton saat weekend, begitu pikirku. Setelah menghabiskan hampir 2 jam berjibaku dengan suara bom dan dialog dalam bahasa Korea dan Jepang, The Only Living Boy in New York jadi pilihan film kedua untuk ditonton dimalam minggu ini.

Bercerita tentang Thomas Webb (Callum Turner), seorang pemuda yang baru saja lulus dan masih berusaha untuk menemukan apa yang harus dia lakukan setelah lulus. Thomas tinggal dengan ayah dan ibunya sekaligus dibayang-bayangi kepopuleran ayahnya sebagai pemilik perusahaan penerbit terkenal di New York.

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Callum Turner berperan sebagai Thomas Webb.

Selain itu, Tom juga dekat dengan Mimi (Kiersey Clemons) yang hanya menganggap Thomas sebagai teman. Dengan kata lain, hubungan “bertepuk sebelah tangan”. Ya…a typical relationship everyone could have, right?

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Hubungan sebelah tangan antara Thomas dan Mimi.

Cerita berlanjut saat Thomas bertemu dengan W.F (Jeff Bridges) sebagai tetangga baru di apartemen Thomas. Dalam waktu sekejap mereka merasakan chemistry satu sama lain. Thomas pun mulai menceritakan kehidupannya kepada W.F dan menganggap W.F sebagai teman.

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Jeff Bridges berperan sebagai W.F.

Ketika Thomas dan Mimi sedang pergi ke sebuah bar, mereka melihat ayah Thomas, Ethan (Pierce Brosnan) sedang bersama dengan seorang wanita (Kate Beckinsale)

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Ethan dan seorang wanita disebuah bar.

Menyadari affair antara Ethan dan wanita lain akan mempengaruhi kesehatan ibunya, Judith (Cynthia Nixon), yang sudah diagnosa depresi, Thomas mulai mengikuti wanita tersebut dan memberanikan diri untuk mengonfrontasi wanita tersebut.

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Ethan mengikuti Johanna.

Thomas cukup terkejut saat wanita tersebut, Johanna, mengenal Thomas. Dia menceritakan kepada Thomas bahwa ia bekerja sebagai editor paruh waktu di perusahaan penerbit milik Ethan, ayah Thomas. Dia mengenal Thomas berdasarkan pigura foto yang ada di ruangan kerja Ethan. Walaupun sudah berhasil untuk mengonfrontasi Johanna, Thomas tetap mengikuti Johanna bahkan memaksa Johanna untuk meninggalkan Ethan. Johanna dengan tenangnya hanya membalas bahwa Thomas sebenarnya ingin tidur dengannya. Tetapi Thomas menolak pendapat Johanna.

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Thomas mengonfrontasi Johanna untuk segera meninggalkan Ethan.

Kemudian, Thomas menceritakan semua kejadian yang terjadi dengan Johanna kepada W.F. W.F pun bertanya kepada Thomas apa dia memang ingin tidur dengan Johanna. Dengan enggan, Thomas mengakui kalau dia ingin tidur dengan Johanna. Well, who doesn’t want to sleep with charming Johanna?

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Thomas Webb dan W.F dalam sebuah percakapan.

Konflik romansa antara Thomas dan Johanna berlanjut ketika Thomas dan Mimi menghadiri sebuah pesta. Di pesta tersebut, dia bertemu dengan Johanna yang datang dengan pria lain. Thomas kembali mengonfrontasi Johanna dan mereka terlibat dalam sebuah argumen. Johanna mengatakan kepada Thomas kalau dia tidak tahu satu hal apapun tentang dunia orang dewasa. Kemudian Thomas menjawab bahwa dia tahu beberapa hal lalu mencium Johanna. Johanna terkejut tapi Thomas tidak berhenti disitu. Thomas mencium Johanna sekali lagi dan mereka bercumbu penuh gairah. (Hmm ini agak aneh dijelaskan dengan kata-kata ya.)

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Thomas mencium Johanna.

Affair antara Thomas dan Johanna pun berlanjut tanpa diketahui baik oleh Ethan dan Mimi. Thomas mulai jatuh cinta pada Johanna. Dilain sisi, Mimi mulai kehilangan Thomas saat Thomas lebih banyak menghabiskan waktu dengan Johanna. Mimi seems just learn that karma does exist, guys.

Mulai nyaman dengan hubungan mereka, Thomas mulai bercerita kepada Johanna impiannya untuk menjadi penulis. Sayangnya, dia harus berhenti karena menurut Ethan tulisan Thomas hanya “serviceable”. Mungkin Ethan menyadari bakat tersembunyi Thomas tapi tidak mau anaknya menjadi seorang penulis. Diakhir cerita, kebenarannya akan terungkap.

Suatu hari, Thomas mengunjungi W.F di apartemennya dan menemukan naskah berjudul “The Only Living Boy in New York.” Thomas menyukai tulisan W.F dan akhirnya mengetahui kalau W.F adalah penulis terkenal yang sedikit tertutup. Kemudian Thomas mengundang W.F ke pesta yang diadakan oleh Ethan dan Judith.

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Ethan dan Judith mengadakan pesta.

Di pesta itu, W.F yang bertemu dengan Johanna dan memberi peringatan kepada Johanna untuk tidak menyakiti Thomas. Lalu, W.F menghilang dari pesta saat Thomas ingin memperkenalkan W.F ke Judith, ibunya. Alasan W.F menghilang dari pestapun akan dijelaskan diakhir film. (You better wait for it calmly then.)

Buat saya, titik klimaks dan anti klimaks terletak saat hubungan romansa Thomas dan Johanna harus berakhir karena Johanna dilamar oleh Ethan dan Thomas seketika marah dengan Johanna. Dia mendatangi ayahnya dan menceritakan affair yang dia miliki dengan Johanna. Ethan pun marah dan meninggalkan Thomas dan Johanna.

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Ethan marah kepada Thomas.

Johanna mengatakan pada Thomas kalau dia tidak tahu apapun lalu menunjuk W.F yang juga ada pada foto Thomas disebuah pertandingan tenis. Seakan ingin mencari tahu kebenaran foto tersebut, Thomas berlari mencari W.F di apartemennya. Disana dia tidak menemukan W.F dan segera berlari menuju “Brooklyn Inn”.

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Thomas menemui WF di “Brooklyn Inn”.

Di bar ini lah, W.F menceritakan tentang naskah yang baru saja dia selesaikan dan juga menjadi jawaban bagi Thomas untuk semua pertanyaan dipikirannya. W.F adalah teman dekat Ethan dan Judith. Dikarenakan Ethan tidak mampu menghasilkan keturunan, dia dan Judith meminta bantuan kepada W.F untuk memiliki anak dengan Judith. Saat memaksakan diri untuk mabuk, W.F sadar bahwa dia mencintai Judith. Begitu juga dengan Judith. Selama ini pun W.F hanya melihat Thomas dari jauh dan berharap bisa mengembalikan hubungan anak dan ayah diantara mereka.

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Thomas merangkul W.F, ayah kandungnya.

Setelah itu, Thomas pulang ke rumahnya untuk menemui Judith. Disitu, Thomas mengetahui kalau Ethan dan Judith sudah memutuskan untuk berpisah. Thomas juga menceritakan kalau dia sudah mengetahui semua kebenaran masa lalunya serta hubungan Ethan, Judith dan W.F.

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Thomas memberitahukan Judith bahwa dia sudah tahu kebenarannya.

Satu tahun setelahnya, Thomas sudah bekerja disebuah toko buku sekaligus mencoba mempublikasikan bukunya sendiri. Kemudian Ethan menemui Thomas dan mereka berdua berjalan disebuah taman. Ethan menawarkan koneksi kepada beberapa penerbit tapi Thomas menolaknya. Selain itu, Thomas juga menceritakan kabar Mimi yang sedang di Kroasia dan Ethan menceritakan kalau dia masih bertemu Johanna.

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Ethan bercerita kalau dia masih sering menemui Johanna.

Thomas juga menceritakan kabar Judith yang baik-baik saja dan mulai menjalin hubungan lagi dengan W.F. Ethan berpikir itu sangat bagus bagi Judith.

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Thomas melihat Judith datang ke acara perilisan buku W.F

Diakhir cerita, Thomas mengunjungi perilisan buku oleh W.F yang berjudul “The Only Living Boy in New York”. Dia tersenyum melihat Judith duduk di barisan paling depan sedangkan W.F membacakan sebagian dari novelnya untuk para penonton. Dengan begitu, berakhirlah film berdurasi 88 menit ini.

 

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Di tengah jadwal rilis film-film superhero diakhir tahun, The Only  Living Boy in New York bisa menjadi pilihan lain buat pecinta film drama Amerika yang santai dan tidak rumit dengan konflik antar superheronya. Dirilis tepat pada tanggal 11 Agustus 2017, film ini disutradarai oleh Marc Webb yang juga menyutradarai film (500) Days of Summer dan Gifted. Selain itu, para pengisi peran-perannya pun adalah aktor dan aktris yang terkenal; Callum Turner, Kate Beckinsale, Pierce Brosnan, Cynthia Nixon, dan Jeff Bridges.

Selain berperan sebagai W.F, Jeff Bridges juga dipilih sebagai narrator dari film ini. Sang narrator memulai “tugas”nya dengan menceritakan New York secara luas, lugas sekaligus manis lalu memusat kepada kehidupan tokoh utamanya, Thomas Webb.

Bagi para fans film (500) Days of Summer pasti akan terbiasa saat narrator mulai bercerita tentang kota New York dengan suaranya yang khas dan animasinya yang apik. Well, mungkin ini bisa dibilang signature  Marc Webb di film-film drama besutannya.

Selain itu, pemandangan kota New York di musim panas yang teduh sekaligus ramai berhasil terekam oleh kamera 35mm yang sang sutradara pakai untuk merekam semua adegan difilm ini. Menjadi keunikkan lainnya dibandingkan film The Amazing Spiderman yang juga disutradarai oleh Marc Webb.

Kalau soal music score, The Only Living Boy in New York ini memiliki deretan lagu yang wajib didengar kala senggang. Salah satu playlist Spotify yang lengkap mendaftar soundtrack film ini bisa didengar disini. Salah satu favorit saya adalah The Only Living Boy in New York oleh Simon & Garfunkel yang juga menjadi inspirasi pembuatan film ini.
And my personal the most beautiful quotes goes to:

W.F : Thomas, you’re not giving life enough credit. The unpredictable forces of humanity. Life is a much a dream. It’s a random as it’s deliberate. You know as funny as it is tragic. Yours is no exception.

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Semoga tulisan review abal-abal ini bisa menjadi salah satu alasan kalian menonton The Only Living Boy in New York. Dibuat jatuh cinta pada New York itu pasti. But personally, I love my self more because of this movie. So guys, find a window then pounce!

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Review of 2017: Life Goals, Relationship, Money Managing and Depression

I guess I have to write. And here I am writing in the middle of work day, on the first of November.

Dear friends, I realize all of us will leave 2017 to 2018 in two months. Have you ever wonder why time goes too fast now? Things changed in a sec. Now, we are here. Yet, we might be in another place, tomorrow. Now, we are in a good shape but we might be in a great depression tomorrow. No one could predict. No one has planned a great plan.

Now, I am wondering what I have done in previous 10 months. On January 2017, I plan things. Some are great, some are not. I thought I done nothing but I am wrong. I just live my timezone which is really different from my exact plans. I feel okay even my plans have not work really well. It makes me to be grateful more for being in this phase and being eager to do more.

2017 has been great until today. In details, I met some circumstances I haven’t imagine before in 2017. (Thank God.)

I was in love and I was broken in love in 2017. The relationship was over and I keep going on. I feel so powerful to be here.
I could be myself.
I could stand on my feet.
I could leave my previous bad relationship.
I could take care myself more.
I could be me.
And I could love myself more to know I deserve to be better and being with a better guy based on God’s plans. Thank God.

Dear pals, I just want to tell you that being able to work and have your own income is great. The responsibilities are even greater. I am not in teaching stance, act like a wise one. Nah. I am in sharing stance. It is because I was in bad income managing then finally changed into well managing.

I was so hard to save some money or being serious in some investment but I am changed. I believe it is because I train myself hard to be calm and arrange a good outcome plan. Now, I push my self hard to put some money in a investment. No one tells me how to do that, I just learn from internet and a group of investor. I was hard to control my shopping addiction but now I win myself. I keep telling myself “You need to work hard harder if you want to shop more. Or cut some unimportant needs.”

Yeah, I was hard on myself. No regret about that because in that way I could be different.

Hey pals, this is my personal believe that the calmness inside your head is mighty to control your mind. So, be mighty on your head. Heart would always be a good place but head…I can’t say it would always be a good place.

Furthermore, my perspectives of world have moved to another point. At the beginning, I thought the world is black and white but not anymore. The world is so beautiful with the colors which are from any single person I met. Any of us are made beautiful by God and every person radiate divinely. So, spread the love instead.

Dear pals, some win. Some lose. Some fall. Some rise. Like any friendship are drown into notalk phase, mine as well. Yet, I don’t consider this phase as lose and fall sections instead of the right point to win back and rise again. Yeah, I become more positive and optimism for my life. I disagree for any space to negativity. Cheers to great friendship all of us would have again!

Then pals, interesting world I guess looking at how cruel people could be. Nowadays, the world becomes crueler offline even online. Killings and wars have existed for years but I believe telling someone to die on internet is crueler. We don’t kill the flesh but we kill them from the inside. Remember my previous words that mind would not always be a good place? Imagine those harsh words become a tool to activate dark side of mind, what would happen then? Depression, it is. Some said a great depression would be the most killing disease in 10-20 years, I guess. So, we are listening someone die due to depression soon. We are just waiting who the one would be our family, friends, our partners or another loved ones. Would you be ready?

Pals, 2017 would come to an end. The ‘7’ will be substituted by ‘8’. Until then, don’t feel broken lonely. Don’t stop until you have what you dream for. If you failed, that is good. Just rise! 

Don’t let the negativity drives you wild but let grace of Great God comes upon you. You are loved.

Cheers to blessed year!

Noya.

Love Letter to Myself

My dear,

You are full of anger. You are eager of new things beyond you already experienced. Spirit you hold cause some crashes but you don’t need to stop. Keep going. Keep breathing. Keep growing. Keep loving yourself. Because no matter what, you only need to love yourself first and the love you have will light around you.

Tears that you hold for every hurt feelings burry deep might not affect you a lot. A bit probably but promise me that you won’t go down.
Shit things happen. Things won’t go well but promise me you never stop praying for God already provides you strength and wisdom. So, go win His prize.

Being20s might change you into someone else, someone you never thought would be like you now. Someone that might make you regret things. But promise me that you’ll never forget the little daughter with soft soul you were born with. Soul which forgives and be grateful for every things that happened. Soul which remember whose Father she belongs to. Soul which never feel sorry for being kind and helpful for everyone needs to be loved.

Say it loud that you will be her you have dreamt for. Her who wakes up ready to face the world. Her who never feel ashamed to be in downs or too proud to be in ups.

My dear,
Be the best version of who you are because it is what God has planned for you. Bring down the selfishness and evil side you have and bring up the love and happiness you got.

My dear,
You might fall in love or be broken at the same time but not in slightest moment you won’t believe in the power of love. Because love is the fuel of soul like passion you hold so strong until now.

My dear,
I am sorry for your loss.
I am sorry if I never listen to our heart more.
I am sorry if I never invite logics to our table.

I am sorry if I ever hurt you. A lot of times along this 24 years.

Don’t give up on me my dear.
Don’t give up on our dream.
Don’t give up on us.

Happy birthday from me to you.

A great year with blessings finally come.

A Honesty

I want to write a honesty.

When I feel empty, I say ‘air’.
When I feel emo, I say ‘mind’.
When I feel love, I say ‘you’.

I want to write a honesty.

When I feel sad, I say ’empty’.
When I feel happy, I say ‘cheese’.
When I  feel us, I say ‘love’.

I want to write a honesty.

When I feel being lonely, I say ‘music’.
When I feel being left behind, I say ‘relax’.
When I feel being mended, I say ‘soon healed’.

I want to write a honesty.

I feel everything and I have nothing to say.

(Evo)solution

life

On the first week of May, I wrote about life purpose. In brief, I explained that I have no life purposes because it is indefinite and dynamic. For me, there is no such an exact life purpose. It’s because I can’t guarantee with my dynamic life, I could hold into particular life purpose.

Then, on the second week, I wrote about life problems which come with no alert first but become a good sign in the end. For me, the problems are like gift from God, whether to take us back to right path or to lead us to the higher level.

Here comes the third week with life solution. Problems come, solution follows as well.

What makes life evolve is the human himself. It is because we have a job to make our life better and grower. We dream and work for things we want to reach. To be more specific, we never want to reach below because we dream the stars above the sky.

Let’s say you want to be a singer then you will spend most of your times singing (not eating). It’s because you want to sing better until people call us “singer”. Or if you want to be a food critics. I am sure you will go eating in many restaurants to taste the food and to review their food. It’s because you want to tell whether the restaurant serves a good food or not.

Actually, those are just the basic examples because I believe there are more goals you want to reach. You might say you want to just graduate as soon as possible but you might say you want to graduate and get the job as soon as possible. I believe, no matter what goals you want to reach, you’d provide more time to do things you think will help you to reach them.

However, here comes the complex situation. While we try to reach the stars, some terror comes in the form of “problems”.

One thing you should note in your mind is to remember that problems come into our life to help us evolve. It is because life asks us to be better or one step a head. When life is like a school, problems come as a teacher. Whether you want to listen to him or not, the decision is totally yours.

One thing I really remember is when I had bell’s palsy (you can Google it) while I was leading an event. If you already Googled it, you will learn that bells-palsy is like a ‘stroke’ which damage your face’s nerves. Your face will look weird and  weird. Yeah, just weird. But, hey, I don’t want to explain how could I survived bells’ palsy but I want to tell you what really happened.

While I lead that event, I got depressed. I worry things about this event: financial, venue, committee, etc. Every single moment, I am thinking hard about this event. Until, I didn’t take care my own body. I skipped eating because I have to go some places with staff to take care of things. I lost my sleeping time because I had to re-arrange my planning in the middle of the night. My worries made me ignoring my own health.

It was on June. We had UAS and the weather is not really good. Malang was so cold and really windy at that time. My biggest mistake was I went out without jacket. Several times. Let sum up my stupidities: skipping eating, losing sleeping time, being depressed and going out with no jacket many times. The result was I got bell’s palsy and had to spend much money because the medicine was seriously expensive. I felt so ashamed of not being able to take care my own health. I was 20s but can’t take care my self. *sigh*

So, hey, bell’s palsy is my problem. No one knows what will happen in the future. I didn’t know either that I would experience bell’s palsy in the middle of that event. Yet, I choose not to worry about it. I choose to be happy because I finally learn that we really need to take care of our health. Not because people ask us to but because we have to.

I am sure that we might be scared of what could possibly happen. We worry how we could overcome the problem. Me my self even worried the bell’s palsy I got would comeback one day.
Yet, I keep reminding myself, “ Don’t worry. Solutions do exists.” Don’t let the worries to burn your spirit to reach your star.  Don’t let problems cut off your well journey.
Therefore, I choose not to worry the bell’s palsy would come back but I choose to keep being health. The result is I become healthier and the even was run very well. Thank God.

I could also say that solutions to overcome problems are gradually developed from time to time. In another word, they are evolved. During years of our life, there are some meeting points which are called stage. Let’s say stage 1 is your level as kindergartens. Your problem is all about how to spell alphabets, denying to take a nap or ignoring to eat veggies. The solutions comes from your parents so you might be calm because you don’t need to think hard, right?

Then, here comes another level, the harder level. Like a game, the higher level, the more complicated the game is. You are offered more works to do. Equally, the problems are coming harder. Then, when the problems are coming, lemme tell you two things you need to do. First is keep being calm. Then, the second is taking moments to  decide the solution.

Without being calm, you can’t look at your situation crystally . The black clouds might limit your sight ability. Then, you probably fall into another problems. If I was not being calm, I might get panicked and can’t get medication immediately back at the moment I got bell’s palsy.

That is what being calm is really important. It is because when mind gets stuck, let heart leads. You need to be calm because you can’t listen to your heart while your mind is still busy thinking. For me, heart is a safe place to help yourself for a moment. When the storms are so terrific in your mind, heart knows how to silent them for a while.
So, being calm.

After being calm, hearts will lead and your mind finally would work well again. It is the right moment to finally decide the best solution to help you out from these thorny problems.

The question is where does the solution come from then? I tell you, our mind is an amazing place to find the way out. Our mind like an incredible out space where stars do exist and connect to each other. Once, we explore, boom! New findings are just born.
The awesome reason why I tell you to be calm is to help your mind to find the way out. Being calm is to create another boom!  Then, problems are solved.

Remember this. Being calm will grant you well work mind.

Knock Knock, Problems are Here!

Disclaimer: This is the second post about life, continuing the “life purpose” last week. This week, we give you “life problems or obstruction”.

Last week, I proclaimed myself with no specific life purpose because it is easy for me to change once I learn new value. Therefore, it is better for me to focus on present, working in details then let the future is shaped by the now-process. However, during my now-process, problems are always knocking my door. The problems come from so many places with no exact time and have no appointment first. Yeah, you just can’t say, “Dear problems, why don’t you ask me whether I’m busy or not? You can’t simply come to my life.” I believe it’s not. They just come as ‘the order’ is sent to them.

When the problems become guests in my life, I let them in. Just for playing cool. Then, I am wondering why they could come. There are a lot of questions at that time but my brain like stop processing once they come.
For sure, there is no problem entering your life without intention. Once I wonder, I learn that problems might come because my own mistake. I give you one example. I always have this kind back pain after I have less sleep hours. At the beginning, I deny the pain until it never stops.  The back pain is getting worst and I have to put on koyo more and more. I can’t imagine how much money I already spend only for koyo. Hmm….
Actually, I take my time for awhile then realize I have back pain every time I work over time during the night and still have to wake up early. In short, my problem is back pain and my own mistake is stupid-sleeping-hour-management.

After that, as an intelligent creature, I have to decide how I ‘kick out’ my back pain problems. Amazingly, my brain told me, “Get more sleep, genius!” Then, it is like the lamp above my head is on. I decide to have more sleep. But, what about my works then?
Once again, my amazing brain told me, “Why don’t you stop having gadgets during your work time, workers?”. Oh, my brain starts to have some anger I guess. Then, slowly but sure, I learn to put away my gadgets and being more intimate with my work so I could sleep better and have no back pain. (Even, it is hard.)

That process made me realize how could I lose my sleeping time just for gadgets who doesn’t even care about my health. My sleeping time relates to my health but keeping up with gadgets doesn’t give a damn health insurance.

It means problems come when we can’t differ between what really relates to our essential life and what should be less exist in our life. In another way round, we give more space to things that are not meant to us. We let things fill the spaces they don’t deserve until we feel fed up and call the situation, “problems”. Yeah, the situation where you couldn’t differ things you need or not is problem.

In addition, my priest once preached that problems come into our life because they come as an alerts. In one side, you might have problems because your own mistake and God does care about your goodness. He wants you to go back to the right path. Likewise, problems might come into your life as you are ready for the next level.

Problem is like a ‘present’ from God right? Eventually, you’ll thank your problems existence tho. Therefore, don’t worry too much. You’ll need your energy to overcome your problems.

Hang on! The problems do exist but God’s help are coming.

Laughing Out of Life

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Disclaimer: It is a consistent me and my friends’ writing that we MUST post every single week. This week’s theme is life purpose. So, I wish I could tell you in clean and sharp paragraphs about it.

Dear living one, how’s life? Or the proper question might be “what is life”?
I know million of ideas jump in and out in your mind. You start to feel happiness or grieve at the same time. Probably, the answer is none.
Yes, I know you’re surviving both questions. Whether to answer the question or to stay alive. Then, may the odds be ever in your favor.

Lemme tell you short thing about me.

I am (almost) 24 years old in next July. (Yes, Cancer team babe! I’m Mrs. Crab)
I have for almost 24 years been living on mother earth.
I have survive, pass and experience things. Even, I believe I’m not the master of life.
Along these years, I have learnt from the sweetest until the worst one. You name it.
Along these years, I have learnt that every single person survive and struggle. We might live in the same land but we might have different matters. I call it the beauty of diversity.
Along these years, I have experienced the ups and downs. Not forget to mention, I have (and still) learn about life; the meaning, the purpose, the goals or the dreams.

Specifically, I believe all of us still try to find what our life purpose is. I am dreaming. You are dreaming. All of us do dreaming something bigger,  wilder, and stronger in our life. It is normal because we are striving for better things. Something that connects with our soul and fill the spaces in our heart. Therefore, it is so needed to find our life purposes because it is related to the mortality of ourselves. Yet, is it really needed?

Personally, I never have a very specific life purpose because when I try to have one, I end up learn new values that change my mind. Once in my life, I really want to take Communication major because I want to work in media industry. Then, as the time goes by, I chose English Literature.  When I got SNMPTN result, I realize what I have at that time is the result of my experience for years. Since I was a kid, my parents let me listened to their 80s collection album and let me watch Friends, Dawnson’s Creek or Smalville series. They let me surrounded by “English Literature”. Also, I love to transcript lyrics of my favorite songs and translate it by myself with the help of dictionary. I used to read dictionary and wrote new words I found. The most interesting is I love to write poem, short stories or simply blog entry. I have done those for years.

And that is why I feel English Literature is so into me. (Put away the Communication major then)

In another way round, life purpose is also misinterpreted to: who someone becomes , what someone gets, where someone goes, when someone do this or do that, in the future. Like, everything spins around the future. Then, it sometimes makes us lose our present version. We forget the right-now-process we have until we miss the life itself. We focus on the future until we realize we are nothing without our present.
I repeat again. We are nothing without our present.
So, if you want to be particular subject or if you want to get particular things in the future, where are you now? What are you doing now to be someone? To have things? Those are the right questions to have life purpose answer.

You never know where you are going to go if you haven’t read the map.
You never know what you are going to be if you haven’t become someone you don’t want to be.
You never get what you need if you haven’t learn what you want isn’t always what you actually need.

Yet, if you still ask what my life purpose is, I’d like to answer with “I want to be present in every single details I have in present. It is a present from God and I honor Him in my present.”

Dear friend, life is full of surprises so don’t expect it would follow our instructions. Because sometimes, life gives you lemon when you want (water)melon. So, let’s taste the life and laugh out of it!